Thank You For The Memories...

It's a life I'm learning... Not a dream... not memories... not other worldly thoughts... but Life...
I'm currently stressed with my scheduling... Time was never enough for you to do what you want... Controlling the time you have is what's necessary... I was left to choose between my work and studies , religious events and family... It was quite obvious which decision I would make but what will I get in the end? Will I regret?
I came across all the happenings in my life... and in doubts I try to make a decision... Making decisions aren't easy.... dividing into several thoughts in what you think will happen next...
I realise that I have little time left to go... I maybe young but life's too short for you to build everything you want... You need to ditch everything... But it may not be easy... When everything's behind you...
Here I am... crapping the shits out of me again....
I have to start concentrating in my work and studies for now and leave out something where i would accomplish later... I went for Testimonials Orals today... Lucky , i read about Luke...
Would be completing my bible knowledge test by two weeks and start getting back on what I have to do... A promise for myself...
I'm starting to enjoy the way of teaching... It's not easy... Several tasks have to be done... And I have still way lot of things to learn... To change...

I've always try to force a smile , but deep in me... i was totally in doubts...
Every path I take brings on memories... New fresh memories and forgotten memories... Coming back from within...
I still have many days left to laugh...
I just don't realise that yet...
I'm gonna live my life... Wherever...

You became someone whom I could not comprehend anymore...
Maybe that is just life.... sometimes, you just have to let go. Holding on, won't bring happiness...
I didn't want to let go, but seems that right now, i don't think i am even a friend to her...
She left me waiting in the rain for 3 hours and didn't even cares about it...
She ignores me, and treat me like dirt and i have to accept it...
I wish her happiness, because i know the way she went was the right one instead of suffering with me...